Barely coping

The trip in Europe seemed to go very well until last week when I got really sick. Coughing like crazy and loosing my voice. Since I'm no longer registered with a GP, I was unable to see one. Things got worse after an 11hr flight back to LA. As it wasnt bad enough, I was told 2 days ago that I was gonna miscarry. When I took a test on Christmas day, I was over the moon, to read the positive result! 4th pregnancy in 2 years. Sadly it's ending in a 4th miscarriage. There are no words to describe the emotions. I'm empty and broken hearted.
I probably wont be around much in the next few weeks. I need time to recover.